I thought about doing a post on sleep deprivation, seeing as I am. I had to drive my husband to the hospital ER Sunday night so he could have a cut stitched up. We were there all night. Got home around 5:30 am. I went to sleep at 9 am and then woke up three hours later. I thought I might manage to nap in the afternoon, but for the most part I’m not a napper. So Monday I was operating on three hours of sleep.
I did better last night, but I think I’m probably at about 60% Or I was earlier. The later it gets the more compromised I get. I feel tired. My eyes don’t want to focus on the screen. My brain feels like mush.
But I read a post today about blogging and how important it is to be consistent. You may have noticed my consistency has been lacking for some time now. Except perhaps in the area of failing to post. I’ve been more consistent in that than anything.
Still, here I am and I am writing something. Unfortunately the article also said one’s posts should be substantive, not just a rambling stream of consciousness thing about what one did today. I fear I am very close to rambling.
I’m starting, though, to get a feel for what I’m like when I’m deprived of sleep:
Calling anyone on the telephone seems a task beyond my capability.
I can’t get my brain to do anything remotely creative… can’t write on the book, or write a blog post or even make a card.
I get irritable. Pessimistic. Self-condemning.
Small problems inflate into monstrous challenges.
I can’t talk. The words, which I know are there, won’t come up (reminds me of my computer while I’m waiting for a website to come up. Or the mail).
I am easily distracted.
I forget things.
I can, though, get on a roll of activity and do chores if I have a list of relatively routine things to do. Anything complicated and forget it.
So I’m probably foolish to even attempt to do a blog post right, now, but I’m also stubborn and there was that warning about being consistent. Besides I read a post today about how to come up with ideas for a post. The author had a formula:
“What does (EXAMPLE) teach us about (SUBJECT)”.
You’re supposed to fill in the blanks and start writing. Thus,
What does [comparing apples and oranges] teach us about [ … sleep deprivation]?
Um… I have no idea. (I also seem to want to overuse ellipses, tonight…)
I’m not sure I’d have an idea even if I wasn’t sleep deprived. In fact, sitting here, trying to make something out of that, is making me more aware of the fact that my brain seems to have turned into a sock. And the clock is ticking, bringing me ever closer to bed time and reminding me that I should be preparing for bed, or I’ll get there late, and be even MORE sleep deprived tomorrow.
So there you have it. A sleep-deprived persons “thoughts” on sleep deprivation…
But at least I’m posting again… and yes, I’m off to bed now…
I was recently extremely sleep-deprived, more than I’ve ever been in my half century of life. 3-5 hours of interrupted sleep a night for over 5 weeks. I’m still not recovered.
got to where I was concerned to drive.
so – I hear ya.
sleep when you can is my advice.
hopefully we can both get our clocks back in kilter and get on with writing!!!
sorry to hear about your husband! praying his quick recovery!!!
Karen, you could make the grocery list interesting. Seriously, I never imagined a post on sleep deprivation could be so interesting! 😀
I hope your husband’s sutured cut is healing. I hope you’ve caught up a little on your sleep.
As to posting consistently, do it when you can. You’re still grieving and that makes creative things hard enough. You don’t need to feel guilty on top of it.